Concrete Rose

Concrete Rose
I've been through the darkest of the hells....ive been the ugliest duckling...and yet ive grown into a beautiful woman....i am the rose that grew through the concrete

Sunday, October 24, 2010


Falling DEFINITELY wasn't apart of the Plan....

MAC COSMETICS a BADD bitch's BEST friend..... so you bets ta beileve Slater is rocking it!

YOUR eyes they tell me secrets that you cant deny...your eyes they show me feelings that you hold deep inside...


I dont have an ASS!!!

BUT i have an AWESOME PAIR!!!


....(a little mouth to mouth wont hurt)

Friday, October 22, 2010

Flaws && All :-)

Sometimes i catch myself daydreaming && during these mindless moments of hope && aspirations i in vision myself "as perfect".....flawless....just when the dreaming gets good && i drift deeper into a world of lies i SNAP back into reality...i embrace myself flaws && all....I've even constructed a list of my unintentional innocent indiscretions....

A FEW of my very many FLAWS :-)

1.) IF water had the ability to burn, then i probably would burn it...i CANT cook as a matter of fact i cant even boil

2.) If you're riding in the car with me, A: you are saying a silent prayer to the man upstairs begging him for life B: you're screaming && cursing me out....My driving skills aren't perfect i drive equivalent to an fleeing fugitive or a bat out of hell

3.) A+B=Y???? If it has anything to do with math then i more than likely have it WRONG!

4.) BURP!!! Believe it or not one of my worst habits is that i burp about 10 times a day at the most random moments...&& rarely do i say excuse me o_O....OOPS

5.) "i feel your pain".....I am a tad bit sensitive, if i see a person crying or sad i automatically try to figure out a way that i can help them or i shed a few tears...

6.) "BITCH PLEASE" i have been told that i am rude, but actually i am brutally honest, the last thing that i would ever try to do is hurt a person's feelings BUT on the other hand if its on my mind then i don't have a problem saying it

7.) "NIGHT OWL" if looks could kill then anyone that i come in contact with in the "am" would be DEAD...i am not a morning person....i am a complete bitch in the morning time, i wouldn't wish for my worst enemy to say something slick or look at me wrong in the am....im actually working on my "morning bitchassness" i wont be a successful kindergarten teacher in the future if i cant stand to look at my students when they arrive to class.

8.) "COCKY AS I WANNA BE" lots of IGNORANT ass people pass judgement when they first see me && automatically jump the conclusion that i am "stuck up"....at first it use to piss me off but now i have come to the realization that if i am not smiling then i do look mean as shit

9.)"NAW DOE" my feet turn in my ankles are narrow && i wear a size 4 1/2tennis shoe.....i trip over my own feet constantly LOL I am extemely goofy && i am always 5 minutes late catching the most obvious punchlines

10.) "I BET YOU canT WHOOP my ASS" i am every bit of 5feet2....i barely weigh 100 pounds....i am about the size of the average 8th or 9Th grader but in actuality i am nearly 22 years old....i am a very small person but i have the heart && the pride of a giant....my courage is one of my greatest assets but my pride is one of my biggest flaws...people die unhappy everyday because of pride....i don't want to block blessings....learning to put my pride to the side has been my hardest life lesson.....

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

The VIRGINITY crisis

As a young woman I've made plenty of mistakes, Ive apologized for plenty of indiscretions but as a human its a given. I'm "young && dumb" so of course I'm prone to doing dumb shit. One thing that i wont apologize for are my values. My most important value is purity. Value can also be defined as worth.&& im afraid to lower my worth, At the age of 21 i am a virgin...being a virgin is my greatest pride , but it's also a living curse. Females look up to me && compliment me for my ability to not to give in to such a needed temptation while males on the other hand flee && act as though Ive just told them that i am "HIV positive"...LOL I feel like me being a virgin is a win lose situation, In my heart I'm winning but in my reality i am losing...I'm not saying that I'm waiting until marriage because i honestly don't see marriage in my future, i don't even know if i would say that I'm "saving" it. Theres no special scheduled occasion or anything i just never lost it. I wouldn't say that I'm waiting for "Mr. right" because in todays world "Mr. Right" doesn't seem to exist, i mean being a virgin does have its perks....any boyfriend that i ever had actually valued me more && treated me with the up most respect. Being in a relationship && being a virgin allowed me && my ex bf's to get to know each other more, we had a different type of respect for one another because we shared a different type of intimacy, it wasnt physical but it was mental. Mental intimacy is better than any orgasm that i've ever heard of....Dont get me wrong there have been many moments when i was ready to rip of clothes && get to work! But something didnt allow me to get there, something in my soul wasn't ready to go all the way....ive been in relationships that have lasted over years && i was never disrespected or frowned upon for being a virgin, i was respected i was praised, i was put on a pedestal, i was showered in gifts because i was a prized possession....so now i find myself single again && dont get me wrong the single life is NICE i have the freedom to do as i please....school && work are my only commitments.....But im also afraid that i will be single for a very long time, because so many women have NO standards these days so when i do meet a nice guy his expectations will be that i am like the rest, && when i make it clear that i am not...he runs....its so hard to be a young lady today in a world full of hoes....BUT i have faith that my standards will be appreciated...&& maybe my NEXT wont see me being a virgin as a hindrance but as a blessing && who know's he may just be the one to END "The VIRGINITY crisis"....